Now I Know!

From the moment I, with Surgeons’ help, brought our darling baby out to this world to each passing day there was never an instance that my little darling stays a long way away. I always ‘baby wear’ the world over until that one particular day, my granddad’s 70^th birthday (August 25, 2013) which calls for a clan reunion. That day happened to be the same day with another very important engagement so the husband and I decided to join the get-together later. The presence of the nearest-and-dearests was a must so they insisted to take along my little one with them to make sure that we’re coming over. Actually we agreed, but from the time I heard that idea, though I already gave approval, I was ill at ease. Then the big day came, they were all excited to bring, even argued who would carry and cuddle, my darling baby whose only one year, 6 months and 21 days young then, I was still uneasy deep within. It’s not that I don’t trust any of them to take good care of him; perhaps it’s just that exact sentiment I frequently hear from co-mamas when they’re away with their children, now I know!

On the other hand, I couldn't deny the glee of freedom and convenience, actually. Anyhow, the situation made me remember how it felt to be able to use both hands again in doing a task, freely moving here and there. Oh yeah, carefree, clutter free guise and handbag and sweaty no more. I must say I relished every moment, why not, for only at the moment. And yes, the hubby did say, “I miss this ‘only you and me’ time.” – silly but true =) tsk… tsk… Then later a friend commented, “You look like newlywed.”  =D Oh, really?!! Are we too showy that we’re enjoying our uninterrupted moments together?  Hahahahahaha!

Uh huh! We did enjoy our carefree moments but actually our little darling was always our gab topic. And as soon as we were over and done with our prime engagement, we hurriedly hit the road to grandpa’s county to reunite with our longed-for kinfolks, celebrate grandpa’s well and advanced years and of course be with our darling baby. It was a tiring long trip. I don't know exactly how my little Joseph felt while we were apart, all I know is that he's very happy to be with us again, so do I. Seeing our little one’s sweetest smile and chuckle, and clapping his teensy-weensy hands the moment he saw us and call out to the top of his voice, “MAMA!” awww everything just gleamed like a sunbeam and all the longing and grogginess eluded. Now I know! =)